Am i dieing?

...well i guess i am! Aren´t we all?

For each day that goes on is one day closer to our death, that´s it, nothing to argue about! Or maybe there is...

Some weeks ago after a month of several attacks from diferent kinds of flu virus, that´s what you get in Sweden at winter time, i start to feel a strange pain on my neck, nothing special, not i f we go one week further on time , i got this extreme swelling on the side of my neck, it is dificult to explain in words the size and form, but if you have seen the movie Alien when the creature was trying to come out of some guys belly and you place it on my neck than you get the full picture. When people looked at me the reaction was like this, wow...have your doctor seen that?, why is that we feel good when we show our injuries and scars to other people? People can stay hours comparing scars and tell storys about them, my pain is right here....mine is over there...i got to go to the the dentist, look at this infection inside my mouth, we give a lightspeed look inside the mouth, nice! We have to admit that it is more funny and satisfying to talk about our pain and show our scars and mouth then to look at someone elses, we just sacrifice ourselves so we get our own oportunity, it goes like this inside our heads: bla bla bla bla ok, my turn!

Now i understand when women say that men can´t stand pain and illness, "...is like they are dieing or so", i admit that i have comeback from the dead several times in this period, there goes my reputation of a tuff guy...

After the first visit to the doctor, i had to wait some more weeks for some more examination, this time they used a needle, at the first visit they used a tube inside my nose, i´m not going to tell you on detail what happened, thank me for that!

Yesterday could i steel feel the swelling on my neck, today when i went to the hospital for further examination it was gone, the doctor didn´t really know where to stuck the needle, but at last she found something that could be something, strange but she was happy and i was happy that she just have to use the needle once, if you know what i mean, even if i have the feeling that the place where she taked the analysis wasn´t the exact spot where i had my problem.

I don´t really know what happened, could this be some kind of miracle? Do i believe in miracles? yes i do, do i believe that in most cases it´s not miracles but the power of our mind or pure luck?yes again!

So what do i believe in? First of all i believe that the swelling was gone, i prayed so that it would be gone, i asked for courage when i went to the hospital and i got it. Was it a miracle? I don´t know, but i know that if i believe in miracles i have to believe faith, if i believe in faith i have to believe in the power of my mind, isn´t that what faith in something is?you have to boost your mind in order to believe in something really hard, in other words we are all talking about the same thing, when people try to explane miracles saying that it is "just" the power of our minds they are giving us some kind of defenition of faith, we are talking about the same thing and they don`t get it!

Of course that we need our mind in order to believe in something, in this case in a God that can perform miracles, why is that when people think about miracles they imagine some kind of light that comes from the sky, or drinking a magic potion or even angels that touch us, but maybe God uses our own mind so the miracles can be performed.

I believe that our body is dying, but i also believe that we are more than this body, what we are you can´t touch or see, if you want to see who you really are you have to reach your soul, and for you to be able to do it you have to use your senses. With your eyes you see your body but if you use your mind you can explore the soul, what a ride! You just have to believe, one thing i´m sure, i know where i´m going when i leave this body, do you?

If you have some time leave a comment, it´s free!You can do it in swedish, english, spanish, portuguese, chinese, vietnamese you name it, no it is not a miracle that i can all those languages, it just that i know people from those countrys.